This whole story is forwarded to me in an e-mail. I was totally astonished by the story.I can't stop sharing it with all my blog readers and followers as it is not only inspiring but an eye opener. I would like all to go through each line of this true life story till the end and hope you will all get the touch of love and light of the divine.
Mellen-Thomas Benedict is an artist who
survived a near-death experience (NDE) in 1982. He was dead for over an hour
and a half. During that time, he rose up out of his body and went into the
light. Curious
about the universe, he was taken far into the remote depths of existence, and
even beyond, into the energetic void of nothingness behind the Big Bang.
In 1982, I died from
terminal cancer. My condition was non-operable. I chose not to have chemotherapy.
I was given six to eight months to live. Before this time, I had become
increasingly despondent over the nuclear crisis, the ecology crisis, and so
forth. I came to believe that nature had made a mistake – that we were probably
a cancerous organism on the planet. And that is what eventually killed me.
Before my near-death
experience, I tried all sorts of alternative healing methods. None helped. So I
determined that this was between me and God. I had never really considered God.
Neither was I into any kind of spirituality. But my approaching death sent me
on a quest for more information about spirituality and alternative healing. I
read various religions and philosophies. They gave hope that there was
something on the other side.
I had no medical insurance,
so my life savings went overnight on tests. Unwilling to drag my family into
this, I determined to handle this myself. I ended up in hospice care and was
blessed with an angel for my hospice caretaker, whom I will call
"Anne." She stayed with me through all that was to follow.
Into the Light
I woke up about 4:30 am and I knew that this was it. I was going to
die. I called a few friends & said good-bye. I woke up Anne & made her
promise that my dead body would remain undisturbed for 6 hours, since I had
read that all kinds of interesting things happen when you die. I went back to
sleep. The next thing I remember, I was fully ware & standing up. Yet my
body was lying in the bed. I seemed to be surrounded by darkness, yet I could
see every room in the house & the roof, & even under the house.
A Light shone. I
turned toward it & was aware of its similarity to what others have
described in near-death experiences. It was magnificent & tangible,
alluring. I wanted to go towards that Light like I might want to go into my
ideal mother's or father's arms. As I moved towards the Light, I knew that if I
went into the Light, I would be dead. So I said/felt, "Please wait. I
would like to talk to you before I go."
The entire experience halted. I discovered that I was in control of the
experience. My request was honored. I had conversations with the Light. That's
the best way I can describe it. The Light changed into different figures, like
Jesus, Buddha, Krishna, archetypal images & signs. I asked in a kind of telepathy,
"What is going on here?"
The information
transmitted was that our beliefs shape the kind of feedback we receive. If you
are a Buddhist or Catholic or Fundamentalist, you get a feedback loop of your
own images. I became aware of a Higher Self matrix, a conduit to the Source. We
all have a Higher Self, or an oversoul part of our being, a conduit. All Higher
Selves are connected as one being. All humans are connected as one being.
It was the most
beautiful thing I have ever seen. It was like all the love you've ever wanted
& it was the kind of love that cures, heals, regenerates. I was ready to go
at that time. I said "I am ready, take me." Then the Light turned
into the most beautiful thing that I have ever seen: a mandala of human souls
on this planet. I saw that we are the most beautiful creations – elegant,
exotic ... everything.
I just cannot say enough about how it changed my opinion of human beings in an
instant. I said/thought/felt, "Oh, God, I didn't realize." I was
astonished to find that there was no evil in any soul. People may do terrible
things out of ignorance and lack, but no soul is evil. "What all people
seek – what sustains them – is love," the Light told me. "What
distorts people is a lack of love."
The revelations went
on & on. I asked, "Does this mean that Humankind will be saved?"
Like a trumpet blast with a shower of spiraling lights, the Light
"spoke," saying, "You save, redeem & heal yourself. You
always have & always will. You were created with the power to do so from
before the beginning of the world." In that instant I realized that we
have already been saved.
I thanked the Light of
God with all my heart. The best thing I could come up with was: "Oh dear
God, dear Universe, dear Great Self, I love my Life." The Light seemed to
breathe me in even more deeply, absorbing me. I entered into another realm more
profound than the last, and was aware of an enormous stream of Light, vast
& deep. I asked what it was. The Light answered, "This is the River of
Life. Drink of this manna water to your heart's content." I drank deeply,
in ecstasy.
The Void of
Nothingness
Suddenly I seemed to
be rocketing away from the planet on this stream of Life. I saw the earth fly
away. The solar system whizzed by & disappeared. I flew through the center
of the galaxy, absorbing more knowledge as I went. I learned that this galaxy –
& the entire Universe – is bursting with many different varieties of life.
I saw many worlds. We are not alone in this Universe. It seemed as if all the
creations in the Universe soared past me & vanished in a speck of Light.
Then a second Light
appeared. As I passed into the second Light, I could perceive forever, beyond
Infinity. I was in the Void, pre-Creation, the beginning of time, the first
Word or vibration. I rested in the Eye of Creation & it seemed that I
touched the Face of God. It was not a religious feeling. I was simply at One
with Absolute Life & Consciousness.
I rode the stream
directly into the center of the Light. I felt embraced by the Light as it took
me in with its breath again. And the truth was obvious that there is no death;
that nothing is born & nothing dies; that we are immortal beings, part of a
natural living system that recycles itself endlessly.
It would take me years
to assimilate the Void experience. It was less than nothing, yet greater than
anything. Creation is God exploring God's Self through every way imaginable.
Through every piece of hair on your head, through every leaf on every tree,
through every atom. God is exploring God's Self. I saw everything as the Self
of all. God is here. That's what it is all about. Everything is made of light;
everything is alive.
The Light of Love
I was never told that
I had to come back. I just knew that I would. It was only natural, from what I
had seen. As I began my return to the life cycle, it never crossed my mind, nor
was I told, that I would return to the same body. It did not matter. I had
complete trust in the Light & the Life process.
As the stream merged
with the great Light, I asked never to forget the revelations & the
feelings of what I had learned on the other side. I thought of myself as a
human again & I was happy to be that. From what I have seen, I would be
happy to be an atom in this universe. An atom. So to be the human part of God
... this is the most fantastic blessing. It is a blessing beyond our wildest
imagination of what a blessing can be.
For each & every one of us to be the human part of this experience is
awesome, and magnificent. Each & every one of us, no matter where we are,
screwed up or not, is a blessing to the planet, right where we are. So I went
through the reincarnation process expecting to be a baby somewhere.
But I reincarnated
back into this body. I was so surprised when I opened my eyes, to be back in
this body, back in my room with someone looking over me, crying her eyes out.
It was Anne, my hospice caretaker. She had found me dead thirty minutes before.
We do not know how long I was dead, only that she found me thirty minutes
before. She had honored my wish to have my newly-dead body left alone. She can
verify that I really was dead.
It was not a
near-death experience. I believe I probably experienced death itself for at
least an hour & a half. When I later awakened & saw the light outside,
confused, I tried to get up to go to it, but I fell out of the bed. She heard a
loud "clunk", ran in, and found me on the floor. When I recovered, I
was surprised & awed about what had happened. I had no memory at first of
the experience. I kept slipping out of this world & kept asking, "Am I
alive?" This world seemed more like a dream than that one.
Within 3 days, I was
feeling normal again, clearer, yet different than ever before. My memories of
the journey came back later. But from my return I could find nothing wrong with
any human being I had ever seen. Previous to my death I was judgmental,
believing that people were really screwed up. Everyone but me.
About 3 months later a
friend said I should get tested for the cancer. So I got the scans & so
forth. I felt healthy. I still remember the doctor at the clinic looking at the
"before" & "after" scans. He said, "I can find no
sign of cancer now." "A miracle?" I asked. "No," he
answered. "These things happen ... spontaneous remission." He seemed
unimpressed. But I was impressed. I knew it was a miracle.
Lessons Learned
I asked God:
"What is the best religion on the planet? Which one is right?" God
said with great love: "It doesn't matter." What an incredible grace.
It does not matter what religion we are. Religions come & they go. They
change. Buddhism has not been here forever, Catholicism has not been here
forever & they are all about to become more enlightened. More light is
coming into all systems now. Many will resist & fight about it, one
religion against the next, believing that only they are right.
When God said,
"It doesn't matter," I understood that it is for us to care about,
because we are the caring beings. The Source does not care if you are
Protestant, Buddhist, or Jew. Each is a reflection, a facet of the whole. I
wish that all religions would realize it & let each other be. It is not the
end of separate religions, but live & let live. Each has a different view,
and it all adds up to the big picture.
I went over to the
other side with a lot of fears about toxic waste, nuclear missiles, the
population explosion, the rain forest. I came back loving every single problem.
I love nuclear waste. I love the mushroom cloud; this is the holiest mandala
that we have manifested to date, as an archetype. More than any religion or
philosophy on Earth, that terrible, wonderful cloud brought us together all of
a sudden, to a new level of consciousness.
Knowing that maybe we
can blow up the planet 50 times, or 500 times, we finally realize that maybe we
are all here together now. For a period, they had to keep setting off more
bombs to get it into us. Then we started saying, "we do not need this any
more." Now we are actually in a safer world than we have ever been in
& it is going to get even safer.
So I came back loving toxic waste, because it brought us together. These things
are so big. Clearing of the rain forest will slow down & in 50 years there
will be more trees on the planet than in a long time. If you are into ecology,
go for it; you are that part of the system that is becoming aware. Go for it
with all your might, but do not be depressed or disheartened. Earth is in the
process of domesticating itself & we are cells on that Body. Population
increase is getting very close to the optimal range of energy to cause a shift
in consciousness. That shift in consciousness will change politics, money,
energy, & more.
The Great Mystery of life has little to do with intelligence. The Universe is
not an intellectual process. The intellect is helpful; but our hearts are the
wiser part of ourselves. Since my return I have experienced the Light
spontaneously. I have learned how to get to that space almost any time in my
meditation. You can also do this. You don't have to die first. You are wired
for it already. The body is the most magnificent Light being there is. The body
is a universe of incredible Light. We don't need to commune with God; God is
already communing with us in every moment!
Be Happy. God Bless.